end with a worst feeling ..

talk about my day .. I'm sad from morning ..  just the feeling of sad .. I call him and wanna to tell him that I'm sad .. but he did't pick up my call .. I guess he still sleeping .. so I decide to talk to my mom .. but I forgot that they went to kenigau edy .. no one at home .. I'm alone .. I wanna to talk to someone but no one around me .. :'( .. so I continue my sleep with a totally sad mod .. then I wake around 2p.m .. and they has back .. and also some children went to my house .. so I have surrounding with a happy mod .. then calling with him .. after a while he have something to do so we end up our call .. so then .. I went to living room to talk to my dady and my family .. since a long time I did't sit and talk with them .. then .. so then .. I'm bored and webcam-ing with my mom sister and brother .. 

here was the pic we have :)

my mom pretty isn't she? .. :) 

then I went to take a bath .. and after I bath .. I start to on9 and continue webcam-ing .. I decide to make some photo to him and hope that he will knw how much I miss him .. almost every time I'm thinking of him .. before I went to sleep .. after I'm awake .. the first thing on my mind was him .. how about him?.. I akways wonder about this .. did he even have figure out of me even once? .. I dnt knw ..

I made this with bear Alvin ..

we both miss him a lot ..

and this was my own ..

and after that I upload to facebook .. and chat with him .. he need to go after a while .. he offline and I tell him I will call him later .. then I watch my drama .. he say he have to take a bath so that he end the call .. then when I call later .. he still not yet bath .. and he ask me to sleep .. I say I dnt wanna to sleep .. actually I just wanna some attention from him .. but he seem like dnt understand .. he get mad .. and tell that he went to bath and ask me to sleep .. then once again .. without say a word .. he direct end the call .. even a gudnyte  .. he did't say to me .. and like usual .. I cry ..

ugly right? .. I knw it ..

my tears was so cheap to everyone ..

he say that he dislike that I did't listen to him .. and here I tell you laogong .. I did listen ! every single word .. I keep it .. I never do thing that you dislike me to do .. I listen to you .. I just wanna our call can longer .. I did not want to end up our call .. I'm just try to keep your attention to me .. and if I do something that you dislike .. forgive me .. I'm sorry I did't mean to .. dnt be mad .. not good for your health .. I won't disturb you if you did't want to hear me and see me .. I'm sorry for everything ..

Gudnyte laogong .. even you did't hear me .. 

Sleep well kay :')

♥ A.I ♥