I dnt knw what have happen.. I dnt knw where are he going.. almost a whole day did't talk.. I really cnt take it anymore.. my heart like broke into a thousand piece.. he never like this before.. even that I did't talk with him, mad at him, scold him.. he still will talk to me.. but today.. he did't.. I wait for him.. even did't eat anything.. but he did't talk with me or even look at me.. even once.. I hope he talk to me.. he never let me back home alone.. but today.. without telling me a word or leaving a msg where he is going.. or what the thing that important for him so he need to go first.. nothing he say.. I'm scared.. I cannot feel him today.. I feel like our heart far apart.. I think he is not with me anymore.. his heart his soul.. gone.. far away from me.. I feel it.. so I ask to broke up with him.. I cannot stand with a relation that have no feeling no love inside.. atlast.. I knw what there have a lot people die because of love and seperate.. it's really painful.. it's more and more painful compare with the hurt outside.. heart.. broke to a thounsand peace.. did you guy have feel this before? for me.. this is the first time I feel like this.. really pain.. really.. my tears start from school.. I dnt want to be ask by other.. I try very hard to force my tears to stop.. very hard.. and I fail.. I cry.. without notice by anyone.. even him.. I dnt feel like hungry.. but I force myself to eat something.. a bite.. then I have no mod anymore.. I think about him.. my tears fall down when I'm eating.. cannot stop.. I love him so much.. so much.. but I will let him free.. he is not belong with me.. no use to keep him by myside without his heart with me.. that will make him hurt and hurt me too.. I though that I can stand strong.. I though that I'm strong.. but I'm a loser.. I'm week if thing come by love and him.. tears still like water falling non stop.. even until now.. I wonder will I blind.. because I can feel that my eyes really dry and pain.. I dnt knw why can my tears can still falling down.. I'm sick.. I'm gonna to die.. I miss him.. I need him.. but he is not belong to me anymore.. he is gone.. knw this fact Icole.. he will not come to you anymore.. his care, his love are not belong to you anymore.. let me cry until I'm blind.. more good if can die.. or.. I'm already die.. my heart.. my soul.. have die..
my tears.. still cannot stop.. I'm afraid that my family will worry about me..
I did't want any around me knw I'm sad and cry..
but my tears cannot stop..
I did't care if I'm blind..
but with this pair of eyes..
I'm afraid they will worry about me..
so I better to stay at my room for a whole day..
I did't care about eating nw..
I guess wont die without eating a day..
will went out when my tears stop and when my eye look normal..
I miss him .. :'(
♥ A.I ♥
